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Welcome to the Void By Sarah Biermann
Welcome to the Void
By Sarah Biermann
By Sarah Biermann
I have spoken to and and gotten emails from so many people all wondering about basically the same thing.
People are tired, exhausted even. There is no enthusiasm for anything, even the things that they used to feel so
excited about?
Physical, mental and emotional and spiritual bodies are out of whack. The physical symptoms can include sinus,
throat, and ear problems, headaches, weird pains that seem to come and
go for no reason, sometimes it feels like the pain is swimming around in
your body. Digestion is off, uncomfortable, too fast or too slow. And
appetite is skewed, things that used to taste good don't taste so good
amy more. There can be body aches, fevers and flu like symptoms, and of
course just being really, really tired. Vision is variable, sometimes
being quite blurry.
Mental symptoms include either unable to even think or getting lost in mental loops. Keeping track of time is
challenging and so is doing anything that requires an sharp left brain.
It is much easier to distract ourselves and to just sit and stare at the
sky, the television, a book or the wall. Those little things that used
to give you pleasure just don't do it anymore.
Emotions are running rampant. Apathy, hopelessness, despair, sadness and a feeling of
being totally empty and stuck. Alternately, you might be feeling really
frustrated. It's like long term PMS, you just want people to leave you
alone and take care of their own problems. (People can be so annoying.)
You might feel loss of interest in your work, your hobbies, your
friends and even the whole planet. Just brushing your teeth (again!)
seems like such a chore, and so stupid. Why bother, it's all illusion
anyway.
When emotions are running high it is difficult to maintain your connection with spirit. It's like the emotions have filled
you up, over your eyes and ears so you can't see or hear clearly and
there's no room for new information. Have you noticed that when you are
most miserable, afraid or sad that when you call on spirit for guidance
you get nothing?
What is going on here? We're getting so close to 2012 and we were promised that things would get better. But right now
I don't give a damn about any of that, I just want to sleep.
It's like every cell, every molecule, every atom is going through major
transformation. And it's stressful! Imagine an acorn. It's been in it's
seed shape for a long time, waiting to express its potential and become a
great oak tree. But now the conditions require that it starts the
transformation. This process is stressful. Chemical changes happen
inside, creating pressure on the seed shell. This pressure builds and
builds while the moist environment softens the shell, making it weaker.
Eventually, the shell splits and the tender, vulnerable sprout begins to
emerge.
Think about what that would feel like to the seed. Its protective shell is getting weak and breaking apart. The tender inner
parts, once so safe and protected, are now being exposed to an unknown
environment. This is something that the seed has never experienced
before and it doesn't know what will happen in the end.
This is what is happening on a cellular level within our bodies. Not that we are
becoming trees! It's a metaphor. This is the stress that we are feeling
in our bodies and it is using a lot of energy. Most of you have been
living on will power alone, making yourself do the things that you must.
And at the same time a powerful spiritual transformation is going on. The
energetic connections between the new reality and the old reality are
disconnecting. All the things that defined you in the old reality are
falling away. Those things include your roles (daughter, son, mother,
father, etc.) your dreams and the ways that you manifest your dreams.
You have already let go of so many things. It can feel like chunks of
you have been chiseled away. Now, at the end of the process it is
necessary to release even those things that you have loved the most.
These are things in your life, like your spiritual work, creative
interests and also things that make up your very self.
We all have ways that we define our selves. The things that we like, what we
don't care about or dislike. We take it for granted that this is who we
are. We have all had dreams about the future, perhaps to open a healing
center, or write a book or live in a community and grow your own food.
Many of these things are what we really like or love about ourselves.
Right now we are revisiting these definitions and dreams. Do we still
desire the same things? Is it appropriate to take these into the new
reality or are they based too much on the old energy?
Here are some examples:
One woman always wanted to have a healing practice. She had studied many modalities and finally started to work
with clients. The work was not fun anymore. It was not satisfying or
even interesting.
I spoke to a man who has had a regular yoga practice for many years. It has been very important to him for many
reasons. Now he doesn't feel like going to class anymore.
I have always loved plants. My mom was a landscape architect and an organic
farmer. I was raised to work in the garden and care for the plants. I
have always had a "green thumb" and if I couldn't have my own garden, at
least I always had lots of houseplants. This was something that I
really liked about myself. Recently I felt that all those plants were
nothing more than more responsibility, just more things that I had to
take care of. The joy and love was completely gone.
This is definitely not a comfortable process. There's a little voice in your
head that says, "If I surrender to this then everything will be lost and
I will never feel hopeful or creative again. " There is a fear that we
will never get out of the void. What I have discovered is that the
opposite is true. What is required is to embrace the void. Let yourself
feel the hopelessness, apathy and fear. Spend some time there
experiencing the intensity. Do not take any action yet. I had a thought
that I would throw all the (stupid, needy) houseplants into the trash
and be done with it. Luckily, I decided to wait it out. (Or maybe that
just seemed like too much work.)
A few days later I noticed an orchid in a pot by my driveway. It's blooms had just fully opened and I
paused for a moment to appreciate the beauty. It made me feel good and
grateful. It seems that I did not loose forever my love of plants. Now,
instead of this definition being unconscious, based on my childhood and
habit, it was a choice.
We can not live in physical reality without any definitions. In order for something to be manifested it must
have some definition. What is going on now is that we are being giving
the opportunity to look at how we have defined ourselves, see what it
feels like to not have those definitions and to choose what we want to
take with us into the new reality.
When you combine the re-defining process with the transformation of the physical body you
have a potent mix. And yes, the two are related. So be very patient and
gentle with yourself. Don't try to fight it. As I read the energy, we
have no more than a couple more weeks of intense void time.
Focus on the little things that give you pleasure, whether it's a flower,
some awesome cloud formations or a hug from someone you love. Soon
things will start to light up again. Trust in the process.
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