I was recently asked, "do you ever have a bad day or get depressed?"
The question made me laugh like most things do these days. I gave a
simple reply but it spawned a plethora of thoughts on living moment to
moment.

I used to be very emotion driven. I was HOOKED on my emotions. They
guided my every move and concept of who I was. I had no idea what they
were except 'me'. I associated myself through my emotions. The were
MINE after all! <grins>

But over the last couple of years that has shifted so much that these
emotions within me don't have a hold over me. Yes I do have peaks and
valleys with them. I AM human. <grins bigger>. When they come I
relish them. I really FEEL them. To the core and usually end up
laughing by the time i am done.

I used to think it all out, talk it all out. Seek answers to why a
situation happened. I never allowed the fluidity of life to just be. I
NEEDED answers Damn IT! < giggles now >

Do I have 'bad days' ? LOL Nah, I also don't have 'good' days. I
have a life that is an expression of Creations beautiful design. I am
a moving entity that creates in layers of resonant harmony. I KNOW
this now. I KNOW I am not an emotion, nor a circumstance .... My
personality is a guide and lens for for this energy to be expressed.
The best way I can do that is through my heart and my connection to
the LOVE of LIFE. Love for me is beyond an emotion. It is the
highest vibration of creation I understand at this moment.

It is the very core of my being. When I woke up and realized that
everything I thought I knew and understood about who I was was a
falsehood that was the moment I realized I was translucent. Emotions
now move through me, they do not direct me. ( Even if I do tell the
traffic what to do. LOL)

I think, perhaps I found an inner peace within me. I say it this way
because I am constantly finding depth in existence. To state that I
have found THE peace just might be limiting for me. So I leave it as a
possibility and allow a larger possibility to be in formation for me
to discover.

I also no longer seek anything. I love to Discover instead. Discovery
is a wonderment!!! It is childlike. Everything becomes an amazing
thing ! I can't tell you how often I say to those around me, "OH
LOOK!". I am sure it is annoying at times. < grins again > But
like the child. I don't seem to mind that it is.

I am OK with my personality and all of its quirks. I know I talk a
lot, I have a lot to say!
I laugh a lot, because life is absurd. I laugh AT EVERYTHING and
EVERYONE, especially myself. I am the most absurd of all! :)

Days and moments are not good or bad. Those are perceptions my friends.
Perceptions don't make me anything more or less than what Creation
has formed me to be. So I choose to not have good, or bad days. I
choose to go with the flow. If the flow has me in a bad mood, then I
am in a bad mood. If it has me in sadness ( which is such a moving
place to be!!!) Then that is where I am. You see it is about
allowing the self to move through existence in understanding of Life.
Of the process of being. Not about the dramas and plays going on
around us or with us.

i love the character I am playing, she is wild and free and crazy and
loving and interested, in the whole sha-bang of being.

Nah, I don't have bad days anymore. I have moments of wonder.
Sometimes they are stressful, sometimes they are elated. Sometimes
they are depressed, sometimes they are expansive. But they are moments
only. I strive to make them count. Then I don't get too caught up
in them.
:) namaste'

Much Love,
Shar